I was lamenting to S. that I feel right now as though I'm in one of those dreams where you jump up and down to get someone's attention. All the while life goes on around you. People are laughing, talking, living, while you yell and no sound comes out. S. laughed at my analogy (I was laughing, too but mine was the "I-better-laugh-or-I-will-cry" type.) He acknowledged, "This is totally crazy, huh?" Things simply seem to interfere with "the next step" in every area of our lives.
My husband is not much for worrying. In fact, he sometimes gets giddy to be able to throw up his hands and wait for God to do something extraordinary. I wouldn't say I felt worry this week. I would say I felt exhausted and beyond ready for the next step in our lives.
Then I got an e mail from a cousin who completely understands my circumstances and me. The line in her e mail that stopped me was,