"When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of sorrow shall not overflow;
For I will be with thee thy troubles to bless
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.
When through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie,
My grace, all-sufficient, shall be thy supply.
The flames shall not hurt thee; I only design
Thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine."
Dross is defined as:
impurity: worthless or dangerous material that should be removed; "there were impurities in the water"
slag: the scum formed by oxidation at the surface of molten metals
This year has been defined by flames consuming "scum". As a result...we are being refined. Also as a result... I am beyond ecstatic to see 2010 come to an end. In fact, all month I had an urge to burn something. Every time someone said, "I can't believe 2010 is almost over!" I thought, "Let it burn."
So on New Year's Eve in an inspired moment I took a lighter outside with my 2010 calendar (it would cause less damage than some of the other things I considered burning).
When S. came home to find me in the backyard in a burning ceremony...no lost love for the past year...he laughed and cheered.
At midnight, we sighed relief.
Happy New Year!